bun buns

Hope everyone had a great holiday. I know I did. Ive been so busy. And also been sick the last few days.. which sucks bc I lost like 2 days at work =(
but anyways... I finally have someone who treats me right. It has been so much fun. but thats not what this is about.. =)


This is about my baby. And I am really bad a picking out names.. it took me a couple days to name her... but I decided on Eloise.  I just always liked the name...  I actually have three bunnies. <3 amazing.="amazing." are="are" at="at" br="br" first="first" fluffy="fluffy" it="it" love="love" nbsp="nbsp" sight.="sight." so="so" super="super" they="they" was="was">

confessions...

I said I would stop. I'm trying my best. Its just hard to quit.
It is also hard to type with fake nails, but that's another story haha..

speaking of stories... Here comes some confessions of a shopaholic...
Just Fab is selling 3 purses for $59.95!!!!
That is a great deal considering my last purse I bought from Charming Charlie cost over $40. So thats like $5.00 for the other two purses. Oh man, I could not be happier. =D
    "Chrysler Building"           "High Society"            "Frontrunner"
 I don't have any yellow or blue purses and I have been looking for ones I actually like. I wanted a tan purse, that can look nice during occasions... I also think the names for the purses and shoes are so cute and clever. www.justfab.com



on one of my shopping outings, I came across this store: .                   I absolutely fell in love with this store. I wanted to buy everything!! They also had some very good prices as well. Personally, I like having more things for my money. I'm not one of those people who are going to spend over $100 for a shirt. If you are like me, then you need to hit up this place. www.bodyc.com

im going surfing.

one day I will go surfing and from then on I will never stop. I'm going to wake up at the crack of dawn and run towards that ocean.  It will be great.
not to change the subject but ...
any guy who breaks up with a girl who thought she was prego is a freaking jerk.  Im just tired of jerks. But you know what is funny, when your the one who uses a guy and see his face haha they sure dont like it. Im just tired of meaningless relationships(ill call them that). oh man this is messing up now. yeah I have a problem of messing things up. oh but yeah im just tired of playing the field. Its not fun. its not for me.  Im just glad im finding who I am.  I have alot to look forward too. surgery next week and idk what to do if something goes wrong.  Im so sick of desperate people. 
The man I love likes chow mein. =)

Fear of Losing Control

You feel overwhelmed by the prospect of change, and worry that if you follow your heart, you will risk everything—your financial security, your future, even your relationships. When faced with a decision, "catastrophizers," as psychologists call them, tend to jump to the worst-case outcome. For example, when you think about changing jobs, you quickly come to a vision of yourself living on the street after failing miserably. Karen Reivich, PhD, codirector of the University of Pennsylvania's Resiliency Program, has a useful technique for easing that anxiety. When you feel your negative thoughts spiraling out of control, try forcing them in the opposite direction by imagining an equally improbable best-case scenario. For example, you are so amazing at your new job that you get promoted five times in the first year and appear on the cover of Forbes. This positive picture broadens your outlook, and makes it easier for you to envision a realistic scenario between the two extremes. You will likely struggle a bit as you transition into the new job, but you will gradually become more successful—and feel much happier and more satisfied.

fear is the heart of love.

Sometimes in life there really are bonds formed that can never be broken. Sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what. Maybe you'll find it in a spouse and celebrate it with your dream wedding, but there's also the chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime-- the one person who knows you sometimes better than you know yourself-- is the same person who's been standing beside you all along
Even more, I had never meant to love him. One thing I truly knew...knew it in the pit of my stomach, in the center of my bones, knew it from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, knew it deep in my empty chest---was how love gave someone the power to break you. I'd been broken beyond repair.

gash

how hard is it to find a holland lop bunny?

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I dont know what to do anymore.

do you like where your headed?
are you happy?

=) smile

today was so interesting.  people were having drama at work the minute I walked in.
I have been talking to this guy. and I didn't know exactly how I felt about him. But today hanging out seeing him made me have an immediate smile. had fun.  I guess it does find you one way or another. I just always thought I liked older guys. I mean I still do... but I guess sometimes its not always what you expect.
So Im going to keep optimistic and hope for the best.  and see where this goes... =)

I give up

The more I try to get anything to work, the more it doesn't. So on that thought I say fuck everyone and I give up. I'm just pissed because my phone isn't working and it did this 20 days ago. I thought It was fixed but it looks like I'm going to have to take it to Apple soon. I have to close tonight thought. So I have to make an appt. and I don't know when to make it for. I knew it was too good to be true. That is the story of my life!!! Every time I think something is too good to be true, it comes back and hits me in the face per say.  ugh I just give up!! I cant get a hold of someone to find out where they are because I'm using their phone till I get mine fixed !!  and I need to see when I can make my appt. because I don't want to be driving without my phone all the way out to the apple store.  maybe it was a bad idea to even get it in the first place. Nothing ever works out for me so I don't see why I just keep trying....

little buttons

I'm just saying I'm so sick of all these stupid all mofo's. okay seriously I am not going to be your friend or what you want because your all morons! I may have been immature in my life, but that was the old me. That does not mean I want to deal with your drama ok? or your stupid posts.
However, I am happy because I'm going on vacation again. except this one will be different in major ways... =)  now its just time to save up.
I'm seriously debating on going out of the country for college at least for a semester. well I was.. I hate when you find someone and you don't want to go far away from them. But I guess if they really like you then they would be waiting when you come back.  I know I would have.
I think were going to get stuff done today, being lazy around the house. Then might go out for a drink or something later. fun times..

=)

I may have wanted you yesterday. But you dont want to see me again. and what am I supposed to do not meet some rich guy that wants to marry me. yep.  im happy.. =)  you cant control love

the truth.

Its thanksgiving. what am i to be thankful for? for finally knowing the truth. The reason why I have problems trusting men. my dad. you may all be thinking, oh don't blame your dad for your trust issues. and truthfully, to this day I never have. I never thought I had a real reason. I thought I just had trust issues, for a different reason. But know I know the truth. while drinking with my moms side of the family today, many issues and things that have been hidden have come out. And honestly, I am so mad and appalled that any of this has ever happened. you know, I knew my dad was never a really nice guy and he always had a temper. I know my dads side of the family always treats my cousins better than me and my sisters. but this is not about that. I can live with that. But this.. is just making me so mad. I just want to get a lawyer or something. You may be thinking, oh her dad probably cheated on her mom. NO, this is worse. Much worse.
So here goes it..... please listen to my story. this is all true.
So I found out that when my parents were first together. My dad use to really beat my mom. like seriously beat her. not like just a slap across the face either. my aunts told me many stories. one was when my mom went to lunch with her mom, my mom came home and my dad grabbed my mom by her hair and smashed her face into a metal bar. my mom wasn't allowed to see her family. till this day he still gets mad if she does, but know he just yells or throws stuff on the ground, so i never thought he did anything like that, and my mom never said anything about it.They also said when my mom left the apartment or house they were living in to go live with her mom, my grandparents(dads parents) sent out an arrest warrant for my mom when she went to go get my baby clothes. They also tried to take me away from my mom. My uncle( mom's grandma's brother) had to get a lawyer for my mom to defend herself. so when my mom went back to get my baby clothes with her sister, my dad jumped on the car and was trying to break the window, putting dents in the car. My grandma said my mom was always black and blue from him. He would always be putting dents in the wall and everything.  my grandparents on my dads side were trying to bribe my mom to stay with my dad. I want to know what else happened. thats all they would tell me.
I always hated my dad, but I never knew why really. I mean he was always mean, but I didn't know he was that mean. I wish I had never saved his life. I wish I just left him there to die.
I think this is all my fault. If i hadent been born my mom wouldn't have had to go through all that she could have just left him and been happy.

what is there for me to do?

a little of this.. and alot of that.

where do I begin. where will my story start.
well first off, I have no where to hide. I have to face what Ive done and do my time.  Mumford and Sons reference there. anyway, I know how stupid and crazy I have acted in the past. I do not know why. I don't know why I pushed those I love away from me. I don't know why I started crap. maybe It was for reasons unknown. Ive had a million dollars but Ive spent them all.   Ok first of all, Ive been drinking wine everyday. at least a glass everyday. I like it. this one guy at work is such a creeper. hes always in my space bubble and I cant tell when he is staring at me when he is behind me. hate it. Ive been talking to some ppl. this one guy is really nice. every time we hang out its so much fun. drama free. actually likes me for me. and does fun stuff. so yes you. this is your last chance and im serious. you better figure out what you want, because im done with your games. if you wait too much longer it will be too late. maybe it already is...
I just know whats true. It was true once and it can be again.  if someone is in your head then maybe they are supposed to be there.

holiday

so quick funny update. Im watching 12 dates of christmas. The girl was sitting with her dog saying how shes going to be alone forever. Im with my dog  lol its me. ugh.  I seriously thing my right guy got hit by a bus. Im so tired of the wrong ones. it sucks. my relative is getting married next month to a guy she just met a couple months ago. I dont get it.

lol

what a fantastic day...
got to see mr. mc hotty-hot hot lolz
then the other guy im talking to was there ahha awkward. good thing the guy i was kind of seeing  left. haha. cant believe i liked him. lol.   its just too hard to choose.

think im going shopping. lunch date yesterday. date tonight see how that goes. bahaha.
but it just sucks.. liking someone who doesn't know you exist or knows you exist but doesn't like you for the same reason you like them. =(  oh well that's done and over with.

...

Really not liking how I have to get up early next semester for school. Is there any way to become a morning person? lol  this is going to suck

=(

Heartbeats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/c/christina+perri/a+thousand+years_20986324.html ]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

the good and the bad.

 School is great. getting A's. work is great. I guess Im the only one who gets my drawer right on the penny so that's good. Guy bought me a candy bar yesterday that was pretty funny. I really just don't know who to choose from. lol.
 I hope you grow up and realize what you have done. ha like thats ever going to happen...
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

piano music

I have always tried to make everyone else happy.  Especially ones who have walked out on me. Its just funny that even though people have done bad things to me I still wanted to make them happy.  It was a huge mistake. That person is a total jerk.  The only person that deserves happiness is the one who makes me happy. Its funny how happy you thought you were with someone, and for what? what did they ever do to make you happy? I really cant think of anything. It is all negative.  I deserve someone who I can sing stupid Christmas songs with (LOL). I use to be angry all the time, because of people who have hurt me. If someone hurts you in any way then they do not deserve to have you. Its nice to have someone who is there for you no matter what. They do not want you to change in anyway shape or form. Its also funny how they spend all that time trying to say that they are not like the rest and that's exactly what they are. No, they are worse then the rest. At least most are up front with thats all they want you for. But to hide it and lie about it just makes it horrible. But now I can honestly say that I have found someone who is better than all of that.  I dont need people bringing me down, I dont need people talking shit about me to their friends. Nobody deserves that.  I dont know Im finally free of my burdens. I am strong, I have the confidence to take on anything. And perhaps in the next year or so  the world? possible starting at cork college. sounds good to me... the possibilities are endless..

dream interpretation of dreams last night

To dream that you are at somebody else's funeral signifies that you are burying an old relationship and closing the lid on the past. You may be letting go some of the feelings (resentment, anger, hostility toward someone) that you have been clinging onto. If your are dreaming that you are at a funeral of an unknown person, then it suggests that something in your life needs to put to rest or put aside so that you can make room for something new. You need to investigate further what aspect or component of your life you need to let go.
  
To see the outside of the church in your dream signifies sacredness and spiritual nourishment. It is representative of your value system and the things you hold sacred.

To dream that you are inside a church suggests that you are seeking for spiritual enlightenment and guidance. You are looking to be uplifted in some way. Perhaps you have made some past mistakes which have set you back on your path toward your goals. With proper support, you will get on the right track again. Alternatively, the dream may also mean that you are questioning and debating your life path and where it is leading. You are reevaluating what you want to do.

To see a man in your dream denotes the aspect of yourself that is assertive, rational, aggressive, and/or competitive. Perhaps you need to incorporate these aspects into your own character. If the man is known to you, then the dream may reflect you feelings and concerns you have about him.

If you are a woman and dream that you are in the arms of a man, then it suggests that you are accepting and welcoming your stronger assertive personality. It may also highlight your desires to be in a relationship and your image of the ideal man.

 To dream that you are traveling represents the path toward your life goals. It also parallels your daily routine and how you are progressing along. Alternatively, traveling signifies a desire to escape from your daily burdens. You are looking for a change in scenery, where no one has any expectations of you. Perhaps it is time to make a fresh start. If your travels come to an end, then it symbolizes successful completion of your goals.

 To dream that you are riding a bus implies that you are going along with the crowd. You are lacking originality and control over where your life is taking.

 To save a child in your dream signifies your attempts to save a part of yourself from being destroyed. If you dream that you are separated from your children, then it symbolizes failure in some personal endeavor or a setback in some ideal you had.

 To dream that you are combing or styling your hair suggests that you are taking on and evaluating a new idea, concept, outlook, or way of thinking. You may be putting your thoughts in order and getting your facts straight. A more literal interpretation suggests your concerns about your self-image and appearance.  

To dream that you are helping someone indicates your willingness to compromise your beliefs toward a greater accomplishment. It also represents your efforts to combine your talents or energies to achieve a mutual goal.

:)

It's nice to find someone who respects me. It's like a breath of fresh air :)

IDIOTS!!!!!!!

why vote for someone who has done nothing to help this country??!!   He has done nothing but put us farther and farther in debt!!!!!   im so sick of these dumb ass mother fuckers!!!!!!  get a fucking clue!   we are going to be in debt for the rest of time.. this is ridiculous!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the economy is going to tank. we are going to go into a depression. I bet the first thing he does is pass radical stuff just to say he did something.

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I cant wait till this weekend to see him again!!!!!!!  =p

and if the creepy guy gets in my personal bubble one more time im gunna flip the F out! seriously back off

smile

so I talked to who I will call Mr. mc-hotty-hot-hot. today!   just makes me happy.  thats all im gunna say...... =)

hey

I'm glad I got a new phone number so I didn't have to receive harassing texts from that B**** anymore but know shes harassing me over Facebook pretending to be her bf(?)  wow get a life.. and leave me alone my world is much better without her being around lying to everyone.  seriously everyone knows you cheated on the guy you have kids with so stop pretending you didn't.

Ugh

So this guy I was debating on seeing or not. I mean he was hot as hell but I know he wasn't going anywhere cuz he liked to drink and smoke too much. He hit a lady walking her dog while drunk. What the heck. I always fall for the bad guys.

Seriously

I don't want your drama at 7 in the morning. I'm done with this. Don't talk shit about me and make up stuff one minute then ask me for favors the next. I want a drama free life so I'm done talking to you. Next time you want something you can find someone else!

drunk thoughts

so many things i wish i could say to you. but would it be worth it? WOULD ANTHING I SAY EVEN MATTER? does anthing anymore even matter. it all just fucking sucks. every time i like someone new its not the same. i always think of you. why???   this is bullshit. i mean yes, i wish everything could be forgotten and we could strart over.. but is that even possible. i htink sometimes i am too hopful. I try to hard to fizx things when nobody else tries to help. so many things i want to tell you and when i go to tell you i remember we dont talk anymore. its kinda sad. the person i wanted to talk to and tell everthing to is now just someone i use to know. haha stupid song.  but seriously how long must i go before i totally give up. i was over it more months ago and now im not? how the fuck does that work. ?  
oh well in the end, id rather you be happy, with or without me. thats true love right? if not idk what is........=s

hmmmm lol

I have died every day waiting for you.

ouch

so much pain. im ready for it to be over.

Im sorry

I lost sight of what matters in life. I'm not ready to give up. It just feels different than the others.  I have never ever had a hard time moving on before. I mean I'm living my life and I'm happy, but its constantly in the back of my mind. I know I screwed up. I just need to quit thinking about it all and just forget and move on totally for good. Because I'm not wanted and its never going to happen.  I mean i like other people i guess. But I remember every time I would look at him I would get butterflies even after all that time. Even thinking of him I do..  I must really be crazy HAHAHA! oh geeze...  
esto perpetua

Every time I see him my heart melts.. am I too old for a crush? hahahaha =)

Hello?

Life is really good. There are many things I have learned in a very short period of time (compared to my whole life time).  Some of the hardest things for me to do were to forgive and forget.  I would let the anger and hate build up inside of me into a little ball just waiting to explode at any sign of destruction. This was not who I wanted to be, that is not who I am.. anymore.  I have found peace in the most unlikely of places. But there is one thing I am never going to give up on is hope. "If you can't get someone out of your head, maybe it's because they are meant to be there." I try to tell myself that it would pass in time, but it hasn't. Maybe I just haven't given myself enough time. "If it really didn't matter, you wouldn't spend so much time thinking about it." Even if I move on from person to person throughout my life, there will always be that one person who will always be on my mind. I can make my own decisions.

So if you are reading this, go with your gut instinct and forget about what everyone tells you to do.


"The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows. It’s a very mean and nasty place and I don’t care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard ya hit. It’s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward.”

idk

so this guy I met. Idk I thought he was really cool but then again I was really drunk. haha.. oh the things I get myself into...    Idk...         ughghghghgh!!11

thinking

So I'm thinking and seeing all these guys I passed up along the line somewhere and some of them are in relationships. They are happy and do nice things and take them places ect... and I cant help but think it could be my in that place.
Im done with mean guys. no matter how hot they are, Im done. no more.
Im done with d-bags, im done will controlling or Agressive or possessive or liars. everything.

I'm done looking for the wrong type of guy. I want someone who knows who they are, know what they want. I want someone with standards. Who knows what they want in a relationship. I'm not going to change to someone who I'm not.

I want a relationship where they grow together.  No one person is the leader ect.. 
Accept me for me. Don't try to change me. I don't want another fake relationship.

Nobody deserves to be treated without respect.
I want genuine love and commitment.

running away?

"People who begin to run, train themselves to run for the rest of their lives."   That has been my problem for so many years. I am done running.  I am ready to face anything =)

Have a good day people and remember you are all awesome <3 br="br">

thoughts of the day...

So this is what I find "interesting"...  Old guys try hitting on me.. saying oh your so beautiful, I bet your married with kids already... blah blah blah then they ask how old I am.. so I tell them.. and they are like oh you dont look a day over 18 or something of that sort...
so Im left thinking.. your a middle age male.. who thinks hes hitting on an 18 year old..
PRICELESS!!!   

There will always be yesterday.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

I have hope for tomorrow. For the memories, the good and bad.. they are left in yesterday's time.

really????

dude, seriously?!  Dont tell me your not going to go, then post pics with another girl at the place. How stupid do you think I am. not that I care anyway... just saying....

 yep I took a chance since they all end up in failure anyway why not? right ;)

what the heck guys

well thats not working out....    ahh im so sick of finding the wrong guys

FRIDAY!!

Its Friday you know what that means!!  I cant wait for tonight.  I think Im going to go see him again tonight.  a week is too long ;)   <3 br="br">

=(

why does finding out a family member is engaged feel like a stake through my heart?

gone

My Dearest,
I've missed you very, very much since that last night we were together,
and will hold that night specially in my memories years to come.
I've been turning it over and over in my mind lately.
I've read your letter through at least four times,
and will probably read it more times before I'm through.
I've been sitting here, looking at your picture,
and getting more homesick every minute.
I've wanted that picture more than anything else I know of,
except of course, you yourself.
I keep thinking of you darling,
keep wishing I could be home with you.
I want to leave in the worst possible way
so I can come home to see you but,
things don't look so good on that subject.
This war has spoiled a lot of things for everyone I guess,
I've never been so lonesome in my life as i am right now.
I'm completely lost without you darling.
I never realized i could miss any one person so much,
I just hope it wont be too much longer until I'm able to be with you again
and live a sane and normal life...

why do I do the things I do......

Theres so many things I wish I could tell you...I push you away.  1) Because I do not know your intentions and am so sick of being hurt by you. 2) I have thought of you every second of every day.  Even though I hated you at times, I still loved you. There was a point in time when I would have done anything for you. For a while, yes I have moved on.  Ive seen other people it was fine for a while but eventually you would come back to mind and  the other person was just not the same.. not you. They have made me realize that I do deserve better. However, not matter how much I wish it could work out. I don't think your going to do anything about it. I am so tired of being a back up girl. Its just too bad that it was never mutual..I guess everyone was right. Don't fall for someone who doesn't feel the same for you..   And don't say you did because if you truly felt the same you wouldn't have given up. Not that it matters anymore. I don't know why your playing these games. Figure out what the heck you want.  I am not waiting around.  I have learned from my mistakes. I am at peace in my life and I don't need someone trying to ruin that for their own personal gain. I mean really, what are you trying to get out of this huh? did you forget that your seeing someone else?. I don't need you to lead me on anymore.  Im not stupid.

so there you go, its easier for me to push you away and be mean then to let you know how I really feel.

moonlight

Take me out tonight
Where there's music and there's people
And they're young and alive
Driving in your car
I never never want to go home
Because I haven't got one
Anymore

Take me out tonight
Because I want to see people and I
Want to see life
Driving in your car
Oh, please don't drop me home
Because it's not my home, it's their
Home, and I'm welcome no more


And if a double-decker bus
Crashes into us
To die by your side
Is such a heavenly way to die
And if a ten-ton truck
Kills the both of us
To die by your side
Well, the pleasure - the privilege is mine

someday

This photo made me smile..reminds me that there are nice guys out there. no giving in.

 

someday........=)

more work equals more money

well I have been working alot. But that makes me happy because I get to meet new people everyday and all that jazz. While also making money. And every shopaholic loves to make money, well maybe not but they should. Most shopaholic just like to spend money but not all of us have that privilege so here I am.
Though I have had the typical buys this month which include a couple new boots, clothes, purse ect.. I have been buying some "larger" or more expensive items, however you want to put it.
anyho.. 
A couple weeks ago I purchased the  Sony Cyber-shot DSC-W570. Over all It is a good camera. It has 5x Zoom. 16.1 Megapixels. 25mm wide-angle lens and also takes 720 p video and panorama shots. I love panorama shots that was a big input on deciding cameras. The camera is also very light.
As well as the camera I have decided to order the Iphone 4s in white, yes I know that the new one should be out within a couple months. I have taken the time to decide what to do. With that said, I know that the Iphone 5 will most likely be out of my price range and only have small changes to the Iphone 4s, I have decided to go with the 4s. Hopefully, this will be a good decision. I literally just ordered it so, yah. But also i had to take a long time to figure out which phone company to go with, which is never an easy plan. After having a bad time with a previous Iphone 3g with ATT I have decided to go with Verizon wireless. I have looked up many reviews and Verizon seems to be faster than ATT.  So hopefully I made a good choice there.  I know that with ATT you can talk and do stuff at the same time, but I don't do that anyway so it didn't matter there.

shopaholic... when is too much, too much?

Just received my packages in the mail, and I go and order more...will I admit to being a shopaholic?         No, Never. =P

When must we draw the line? when is too much.. too much?

when you work each week to pay for what you spent the week before.  I mean yes, I have savings.. but I don't like it to go below a certain amount. However, I noticed a persons receipt they left at the ATM. and It said -12 dollars, so now I do not feel so bad ;).  However, I still will not be able to buy a new car or anything large of sorts with a cash payment anytime soon. 

oh and I still haven't bought my school books yet...

www.twitter.com/truebloodjess

Hope-Everything happens for a reason.

Hello gorgeous people of the world. Well today has been a very great day.  I'm so happy and excited for the future.  I have to do what makes me happy, and I am totally  going to go for it.  Everything has been falling into place. I finally feel like I can do what I want for the rest of my life and go somewhere.  There are so many doors opening and the possibilities are endless. I cant wait to be able to travel all around the world.  There has been things I have wanted to do my whole life, but everyone told me not to, or to do something else. Well, Today has changed all of that. I took my first steps to changing my future forever! =D
This is a reminder to everyone out there to never give up hope, do what you love and don't let anyone or anything stand in your way. Never forget who you are, and never change for anyone.
and  remember everyone. Eat. Pray. Love.

The secret to happiness is freedom... And the secret to freedom is courage.

what should I do?

Hello fellow bloggers! 

Happy Wednesday here!
Since I have a job, I have been wondering what I want to spend my oh so hard earned money on. ;)
Anywho... 

I have been totally possessed with IKEA!  If you have never been there you definitely need to check it out!
http://www.ikea.com/us/en/
I also need to update my wardrobe!
=)))
Hope you all have a good summer.

thinking

Looking back, I now wonder why I ever worried about all the small stuff.  It all seems so far away. Sometimes wish it could all be taken back. But every door that closes opens many more new doors. So I wait...

changes

Some things never change. But things that need change will happen with time. Time is a funny thing.  when your with someone special, eternity does not seem long enough. When your in the depths of despair, every day feels like eternity.  False hope is the problem here.  The false hope you receive eventually leads to failure. Your just too dumb to fall for it time after time.. and that is the story of my life.

Ireland

going to Ireland today =).. tonight.. plane leaves at 7.
ill be in Dublin tomorrow.
hopefully the airport and flight doesnt seem to take forever.
anything anyone wants me to document?

beautiful day

what a lovely day it is. 

I am excited to go to Ireland next weekend. 

hopefully meet some new people =)