Feeling Fabulous

So what are the chances of me being chosen? 1/73 yay... that my friends, is what we call a chance in hell.  I really am not one to give up easily, but I am one to explore my options. Sometimes, that can be a real down side. Because we are all aware that the grass is greener on the other side. I am living proof of that.  

so here goes a ramble... it is very funny that I am now aware of this. For like the last half of my life I have always wanted.....
and omfg if i could go a minute without a fucking text that would be fucking awesome KTHANKS guys!!!.\
ok yeah so I have always wanted the sensitive guy type ect... but then when I have had the sensitive guy type in my life. its like leave me alone HELLOOO.>> Idk I just like to chase ppl I guess.. I have talked with my girls and its the same way.. so its like when I have these guys texting me every minute its nice untill they get freaking desperate. like seriously??!!!!  no i am not going to marry you and have kids after knowing you for a couple days,,, fuck off dude!! its like that emo song seriously, I already have a Pussy I dont need another one. bahaha.... its like suck it up dude. Im the girl not you. stop crying to me over GD texts thats what girls do. hahaha. thats why ill stick with my manly men. which means i need to go to more gyms. haha ;)

and stop trying to have a conversation when im gaming. no chance in hell i mean ill talk to you but quit trying to get me to come over cuz its not gunna happen again. just saying. if its a one night stand im the one whos saying dont call me again. and here they are calling me every freaking day like im their gf. like seriousy? GTFO

everything happens for a reason?

Hi my name is Jessica and this is how my life is going =)

 

 

Hello?

Life is really good. There are many things I have learned in a very short period of time (compared to my whole life time).  Some of the hardest things for me to do were to forgive and forget.  I would let the anger and hate build up inside of me into a little ball just waiting to explode at any sign of destruction. This was not who I wanted to be, that is not who I am.. anymore.  I have found peace in the most unlikely of places. But there is one thing I am never going to give up on is hope. "If you can't get someone out of your head, maybe it's because they are meant to be there." I try to tell myself that it would pass in time, but it hasn't. Maybe I just haven't given myself enough time. "If it really didn't matter, you wouldn't spend so much time thinking about it." Even if I move on from person to person throughout my life, there will always be that one person who will always be on my mind. I can make my own decisions.

So if you are reading this, go with your gut instinct and forget about what everyone tells you to do.


"The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows. It’s a very mean and nasty place and I don’t care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard ya hit. It’s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward.”

thinking

Looking back, I now wonder why I ever worried about all the small stuff.  It all seems so far away. Sometimes wish it could all be taken back. But every door that closes opens many more new doors. So I wait...

changes

Some things never change. But things that need change will happen with time. Time is a funny thing.  when your with someone special, eternity does not seem long enough. When your in the depths of despair, every day feels like eternity.  False hope is the problem here.  The false hope you receive eventually leads to failure. Your just too dumb to fall for it time after time.. and that is the story of my life.