everything happens for a reason?

Hi my name is Jessica and this is how my life is going =)

 

 

oh it is love?

can you love someone before you even really know them?

because I remember the day I fell in love with him.  he was wearing this red blackhawks hoodie and that was the day I knew I loved him. funny thing is, it was before I knew really anything about him. looked into his eyes and knew it was much more than some stupid school girl crush.
It is bad how you can ruin something when it was all you wanted.. oh well, live and learn.

dream interpretation of dreams last night

To dream that you are at somebody else's funeral signifies that you are burying an old relationship and closing the lid on the past. You may be letting go some of the feelings (resentment, anger, hostility toward someone) that you have been clinging onto. If your are dreaming that you are at a funeral of an unknown person, then it suggests that something in your life needs to put to rest or put aside so that you can make room for something new. You need to investigate further what aspect or component of your life you need to let go.
  
To see the outside of the church in your dream signifies sacredness and spiritual nourishment. It is representative of your value system and the things you hold sacred.

To dream that you are inside a church suggests that you are seeking for spiritual enlightenment and guidance. You are looking to be uplifted in some way. Perhaps you have made some past mistakes which have set you back on your path toward your goals. With proper support, you will get on the right track again. Alternatively, the dream may also mean that you are questioning and debating your life path and where it is leading. You are reevaluating what you want to do.

To see a man in your dream denotes the aspect of yourself that is assertive, rational, aggressive, and/or competitive. Perhaps you need to incorporate these aspects into your own character. If the man is known to you, then the dream may reflect you feelings and concerns you have about him.

If you are a woman and dream that you are in the arms of a man, then it suggests that you are accepting and welcoming your stronger assertive personality. It may also highlight your desires to be in a relationship and your image of the ideal man.

 To dream that you are traveling represents the path toward your life goals. It also parallels your daily routine and how you are progressing along. Alternatively, traveling signifies a desire to escape from your daily burdens. You are looking for a change in scenery, where no one has any expectations of you. Perhaps it is time to make a fresh start. If your travels come to an end, then it symbolizes successful completion of your goals.

 To dream that you are riding a bus implies that you are going along with the crowd. You are lacking originality and control over where your life is taking.

 To save a child in your dream signifies your attempts to save a part of yourself from being destroyed. If you dream that you are separated from your children, then it symbolizes failure in some personal endeavor or a setback in some ideal you had.

 To dream that you are combing or styling your hair suggests that you are taking on and evaluating a new idea, concept, outlook, or way of thinking. You may be putting your thoughts in order and getting your facts straight. A more literal interpretation suggests your concerns about your self-image and appearance.  

To dream that you are helping someone indicates your willingness to compromise your beliefs toward a greater accomplishment. It also represents your efforts to combine your talents or energies to achieve a mutual goal.

Hello?

Life is really good. There are many things I have learned in a very short period of time (compared to my whole life time).  Some of the hardest things for me to do were to forgive and forget.  I would let the anger and hate build up inside of me into a little ball just waiting to explode at any sign of destruction. This was not who I wanted to be, that is not who I am.. anymore.  I have found peace in the most unlikely of places. But there is one thing I am never going to give up on is hope. "If you can't get someone out of your head, maybe it's because they are meant to be there." I try to tell myself that it would pass in time, but it hasn't. Maybe I just haven't given myself enough time. "If it really didn't matter, you wouldn't spend so much time thinking about it." Even if I move on from person to person throughout my life, there will always be that one person who will always be on my mind. I can make my own decisions.

So if you are reading this, go with your gut instinct and forget about what everyone tells you to do.


"The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows. It’s a very mean and nasty place and I don’t care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard ya hit. It’s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward.”

thinking

Looking back, I now wonder why I ever worried about all the small stuff.  It all seems so far away. Sometimes wish it could all be taken back. But every door that closes opens many more new doors. So I wait...

changes

Some things never change. But things that need change will happen with time. Time is a funny thing.  when your with someone special, eternity does not seem long enough. When your in the depths of despair, every day feels like eternity.  False hope is the problem here.  The false hope you receive eventually leads to failure. Your just too dumb to fall for it time after time.. and that is the story of my life.