taste kickin'

you know that moment when you realize that someone is never going to grow up. yeah its kinda like that. Its like there is no point to this drama. I can do better.. Hell, I have done better and I keep going back to this childish bullshit.. and for what? I really have no clue.  There's really nothing that inspires me, nothing brings me in. Just the thought that maybe they will realize it all. ha ha yeah like that is ever  going to happen. people get to caught up in alcohol and drugs for their own good. and look where it has gotten you.. nowhere. don't you see the people around you? There are people being happy, creating families, creating lasting memories that they will keep with them forever. And what are you doing? getting black out drunk to fill the void in your life. Oh yeah that sounds like soo much fun. no, fuck that. fuck every fucking bullshit lie you tell yourself at night.  And to think i would actually want to spend my life with someone like that? I don't think so..
There is just so much more in life. every day is a new chance to make new beginnings.  I though I would never fall in love again. but I did. true honest to god love at first sight.. I don't want to talk about that..